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Tuesday, May 25, 2010 找不到人说心里的寂寞 找不到人都怕变得沉默 找不到命中注定在一起的人以后 很多人都笑我 一个人过生活 爱 只有简单笔画 却比想象复杂 很安定爱变化 我爱过几个人 也被爱过几遍 却还是没能将幸福留下 爱 是不可输的吗 为何我还相信 她不是不欣赏 我在等一个人 在等我的永恒 告诉我爱不单行别害怕 用不完身边泛滥的自由 还是怕孤单是一种诅咒 羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后 还是宁愿回到 爱情那个枷锁 爱 只有简单笔画 却比想象复杂 很安定爱变化 我爱过几个人 也被爱过几遍 却还是没能将幸福留下 爱 是不可输的吗 为何我还相信 她不是不欣赏 我在等一个人 在等我的永恒 告诉我爱不单行别害怕 爱 是不可输的吗 为何我还相信 她不是不欣赏 我在等一个人 在等我的永恒 告诉我爱不单行别害怕 我在等一个人 在等我的 永恒 告诉我爱不单行相信她 JellyBeMerry 3:00 PM Thursday, October 23, 2008 Why is it, Whatever I do in life I see your shadow lingers Why is it Whereever I go There will be parts of you there What am I Am I not worthy of you? Who am I Have I lost myself? I would do anything Just to forget you I would go anywhere To places without you But do I have a choice? I'm stuck in this trench Unable to crawl out Unable to escape What have I left, Just memories of you That lingers in my soul Haunt me in my sleep I don't want to think of you anymore. I really don't. Everytime when i have news about you, I feel myself not myself again. I wan to be happy. I wan to be merry, hence the name JellyBeMerry. I am naive. I can't do it. As much as I tried, I simply can't. Granted, It's just a short period. A 4 months period. But it has taken a toll much more tougher than the one I had for 3 years. Why is that so? I've put in too much. Silly me. I should'nt have known you in the first place. I shouldnt have stepped in that place. I never liked that kind of places, why did i choose to go. If i hadn't, none of these shyts would have happened. I blame myself. I hate myself. I just want to go away. Leave my home, my area, my country, my life. It's passive I know, something that I would not do last time. But I can't take it anymore. I wan find solace in LIFE. if I couldn't, perhaps there's only solace in DEATH. FCK IT. THAT'S IT, JUST TAKE ME AWAY. JellyBeMerry 7:12 PM Saturday, October 18, 2008 Went to seah street, Lot Stock And Barrel Pub to celebrate our John aka Mary's 23rd birthday. It's an invitation from Ross hun to go there coz her sweetheart and his band is performing there. It's a really cosy place... and I just realise whenever I go to a new place, I never take photographs on the surrounding... =x But it's a really cool place.. very country style.. In short, a good place to chill out. With the live band and all, it's really a place that feels cosy. I like chill out places. It makes me fill comfortable. That's why I don't like to club. I don't like sleazy places. I just want to sit in a English style kinda pub, have a drink with my loved ones. Enjoying the nice music and all and just chatting. Wish you were there.         Gorgeous~ Swensen BlackForest Ice Cream Cake~ The band was damn nice la.. they sang birthday song for him... we had wanted to share our cake with the band, but becoz we waited for them to finish their number before we can pass it to them, the cake melted abit... muahaha so pai seh... but hey! It's the thoughts that count xD HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY JOHN!! AND U BETTER JOIN US MORE FOR OUTING! THINK NEW YEAR AH? MEET ONCE A YEAR AH?? =X Oh, btw... I wanna apologise to someone in Lot Stock and Barrel. Cause swensen, being swensen, buy birthday cake from them they don't give knife de... crazy.. cut with hand ah?! So i had to borrow a knife from the counter, and while washing the knife, she accidentally cut her hand. I know she wouldn't see this blog, but nevertheless, sorry~         JellyBeMerry 1:03 PM Friday, October 17, 2008 你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻 我想起喷泉旁的 白鸽甜蜜散落了 情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢 而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了 时间过了走了 爱情面临选择 你冷了倦了我哭了 离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着 有些爱只给到这 真的痛了 怎么了你累了 说好的幸福呢 我懂了不说了 爱淡了梦远了 开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍 那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得 你不等了 说好的幸福呢 我错了泪干了 放手了后悔了 只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢 你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻 我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了 情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢 而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了 时间过了走了 爱情面临选择 你冷了倦了我哭了 离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着 有些爱只给到这 真的痛了 怎么了你累了 说好的幸福呢 我懂了不说了 爱淡了梦远了 开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得 你不等了说好的幸福呢 我错了泪干了 放手了后悔了 只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢 怎么了你累了 说好的幸福呢 我懂了不说了 爱淡了梦远了 我都还记得 你不等了 说好的幸福呢 我错了泪干了 放手了后悔了 只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢 JellyBeMerry 6:24 PM Thursday, October 16, 2008 Eventful day~ (I think) Noon time went to PSB academy to check out on courses. Was raining.. kinda dampen my mood for a lil too. But the admission officer, after looking at my qualification etc etc, he says I stand a pretty good chance of enrolment. So I thought, o well, I'll just submit my application there and then. To save my trip of coming down again to register again which I'm going to study anyway. So people, cross your fingers n pray hard for me that I will get in the course and be a student again coming January! Gawd.. I miss school... alot... not the school itself, but the people with me. Those were such fun times.. I'm excited... about the new student life... :D:D  Look~ New JayZ album... ^_^ It's been so long since i last bought CD.. but I just had to buy this.. The extra thingy the album gave was a deck of playing cards. Cool~~
JellyBeMerry 9:13 PM Do you like marshmellow? Snow white outer layer,soft marshy on the outside. Sweet jams like blueberry, grape, strawberry on the inside. Or the taste of it after it's being BBQ-ed. The slight charred surface, stickier n chewier surface. A warm feeling after it's being slide down from your throat to your stomach. You like that feeling? I used to, I used to love it. There are so many good things around it last time. Now? I took a piece of marshmellow n eat it. Instead of happy feeling, now it turns the opp. way. The sweetness isn't there no more. It's being replaced by the sour tinge on the nose. Saltish liquid formed in the eyes, waiting to become stronger and bigger so it may just fall off. It's just isn't the same anymore. Marshmellow has turned into a terror. Just like in ghostbusters where he created a mayhem. It's evil.. at least to me. I decided to throw the whole bag away. I don't want to ever see marshmellow in my life anymore. I HATE MARSHMELLOW JellyBeMerry 2:34 PM
命里有时终需有， 命里无时莫强求 。 爱人， 被爱 ，哪一个比较幸福呢? 我觉得， 我又回到了起点，没人爱，没爱人。可能这样的生活比较适合我吧。 人太好?身边的人都这样说。 男人不坏，女人不爱，千古不变。 JellyBeMerry 2:38 AM |
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